Thursday, January 23, 2014

Mirror Mirror

As I type this, I am struggling with the ability to feel in both hands & feet. I recently got diagnosed with Peripheral neuropathy. At this stage I have the ability to use both hands & feet, but I have been told it can get to the severe stage where it is paralysis in effected areas. It is , quite scary. 
I had a CT scan yesterday and blood tests today, searching for the cause so that it can be treated before it gets bad. 
I dislike the feeling if the cause isn't found I may end up dependant on others. I do not like relying on others for things.
At this stage I intend to finish my studies (diploma in community services), not sure how I will go on work placement but i will take that as it comes i am not up to that yet.

This isn't how I planned 2014, my plan was to return to work asap. To be independent. 

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Cultivate14 day 2

The last few years have seemed to be a real downer for everyone. So, indulge in the whiny and get it out of the way. There are some things we just can't move on from until we've spent some time burning effigies. So, that's what we're going to do.

Tell us about a time when you've been heartbroken, angry, or even just annoyed. Tell us about something you just can't seem to let go of or get over. Spread that grievous infection all around, and thin it out. Really lay into it. We'll all feel better in the long run.

I have numerous times been angry, annoyed , frustrated with others and myself. I find it's when I forget to take a step back and take a deep breath, it's when I forget to be mindful and when I forget to see things from the other persons point of view.