Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Day 9: Yearning

Today's one word prompt is:


Yearning to me, is a sign of goals not yet reached. Or a sign of being not satisfied with current situations and you haven't yet figured out goals to change what you do not like.  Yearning, isn't a bad thing. it can be a yearning for knowledge, a yearning for career progression, yearning for romance etc. Whatever, floats your boat really.

I would love to build a house like the duggar's home on a big plot of land, with a big veggie garden. That is my yearning. I also yearn for knowledge. 

The older 3 boys went back to school today after having school holidays, and I miss the noise, the fights over the remote, the chaos. It is too quiet. it is too calm.  I yearn for chaos and noise. 

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Day 8: Wild

Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

 So a few days ago I touched on, the search of Muchness.  Part of finding your Muchness, I think is embracing that wild side , that weird freaky side.    Wild to me, is that inner freak , that  side that goes against trends in fashion, that doesn't care what others think.
 If you think you have lost that inner sparkle, check out How to get your sparkle back. 
Photo of me in the 1990's.

A photo of me when I was in preschool.(1990)

People always seem to remember me, I am never sure if it is a good thing or not. I guess it just means, there is something about me, that stands out even after decades of not seeing me.

Photo of me with a friend
in 2003.

Monday, April 21, 2014


We spent Easter at home. The boys had a sleep in ( I know I am shocked too haha) and they had breakfast then had some easter eggs. Then we did the yearly egg hunt. 

 Then we spent Easter Monday, finishing off our packing to move house and we also spent some time playing football at a local football oval.

Day 7: Textures & creativity

Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

When I think of the word Texture, I think of painting.  I think of mixed medium artworks. I think of getting messy with lots of colours. I think it can be a metaphor for how we navigate life, each colour added to our canvas is something new we learn or try. And at the end of our life, we are left with this creation full of colour that is unique and tells our story.

Click this link to find out how to
paint with your kids
Art was my favourite subject in school.  I even did art lessons outside of school hours from year 8-12.  I remember, once getting into a debate in year 12 with my then Art teacher over Art being more then just a painting. He turned to me, and said "Jess,  your understanding of Art and what it is, is a lot higher then the rest of the class. It is a shame, I can't mark you on what you just said rather then rely on exam scores".Art was my outlet, during my teen years.  I used it to work through issues & problems, to find my voice on things that mattered to me.

I encourage my four boys to create art. Tyson often draws pictures of things that have happened , rather then try to verbalise a problem.  it helps him see the issue in frount of him and helps him find a solution. It is something  teachers often use, it is a bit of Art therapy in a way.

The Importance of Art in Child Development is a great read on why it is important for children to explore Art in any form.  Also Developing Children's Full potential: Why the arts are important , is a great read.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Day 6: Muchness

Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

Today's word prompt reminds me of the differences in how I was before having kids, and how I am now.  Many parents often forget certain aspects of themselves when they have kids.  Before Kids, I would go to protest rallies,  to arts festivals, my circle of friends included  street performers and circus performers.  My world was very free & care free , and colorful.

What is Muchness? How did I lose it? 
I do not know how I lost that spark of imagination & innocence, maybe it is a part of growing up. Maybe, its from how I was raised as a child.  I have set myself the goal of  finding my muchness and retaining it. 
I plan to start an art journal, being creative will reignite that creative side of me again & will help with my portfolio for when I want to go study Art  at tafe or Uni to help get into the masters of Art therapy one day.

The point is not to look at the old me and think  of how much I have changed and dwell on it as if it is a bad thing. But to focus, on how far I have come, and celebrate that.

There was a time I didn't care what others thought of me.  Somewhere along the line I lost that care free aspect of me. I want to find it again.  Right now , I am a mum of 4 little boys, I somehow manage to study, blog and retain some form of sanity. The old me wouldn't have done all that at all. I have evolved.
I found via google  some awesome Muchness bands check them out:

Want to buy 1? get 1 from here : Finding My Muchness
I am no way affiliated with the site or its maker in anyway, I just think they look pretty cool.I think I may order a bunch.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Day 5: Focus

Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

I am writing this  after only having 1 coffee , so if it doesn't make sense I am sorry.  To me the word, Focus, is a remind to look at  what really matters to you.  Be it, family, friends, health, life in general, your goals etc. Sometimes you need to stop, breathe and ask yourself "is this where I really want to be? Is this making me happy? is this what I want ?"

Recently, I asked myself those questions and set about making goals for myself, in various aspects of my life.  I plan to set up a vision board in the office/study of my new house.  (check out How to make a Vision Board for ideas on what they are and how to make one too, or just search Pinterest).

Sometimes, we need a gentle reminder to focus on family etc.Because we miss things or we simply are just taking it for granted. Things like cellphones, can lead to distraction. We make ourselves more available to others , but at what cost?
Dear Mom on the Iphone  really made my eyes open on the topic.  I am no perfect parent, I am very well known for always having my phone in hand. Reading that article, made me think , is this what others see when they look at me?
So I have started leaving my phone on the bench, I have started turning it off at set times at night.  At first ti was hard to not just quickly grab my iphone to check facebook or instagram etc.  But those notifications will always be there when I log back in. My almost 21 month old son won't be so small forever, and  he won't always want to  show me  his matchbox car collection.

I love to take photos, I often take photos with my Iphone. So one of my goals is to  buy a camera.  I am a huge fan of the candid shots, the ones that aren't posed  and seem to e taken when no one is aware.  My theory is, if i get a camera I wont need my iphone as much.

I have noticed that if you surround yourself with people who are focused on positive things that energy , transfers to you and your outlook is a happy one. But if you have negative circle around you, you will feel like you will not get anywhere, that energy around you will suck the good vibes from you.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Day 4: Sacred

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Today's one word prompt is:

What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

Sacred, to me means something that is very important. It can be a space, an object, a person etc. Check out Defining your sacred space for ideas on how to define what your sacred spot is in your home.

Sacred items to me, are those things i hold on to and are very sentimental, for example the photos of my brother who passed away in 2007. Those few photos are important to me, because its all I have to remember him by.

Sacred can mean we hold things on a pedestal,. But it doesn;t always equate to being a negative effect. Sometimes it just means we strive to greatness.

Something being sacred shouldn't hold us back nor hold us down in any way.
“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” 
― Gautama Buddha

I just came across this article (why being scared means you are fully alive) it hasn't got much to do with the word prompt but its a great read.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Day 3

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Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you

Well for me right now Home is a fort of boxes. I am in the middle of moving house. I have boxes everywhere. I do not think there is a room without boxes in it.  I never realised how much stuff I owned until it got packed into boxes. Note to self: Declutter and quit hoarding stuff.

To me home is where My children and husband are. We could be living out of suitcases  and travelling from hotel to hotel and it would still be home to me.

Home growing up for me, wasn't always a happy one.  I was a foster child, so my home was  one in the system.  But I have come out of that as well adjusted adult.  

I remember making vegetarian lasgana with my cousin, the smells of the lasgana cooking filling the house. And the one time we almost burnt the kitchen down (oops), my cousin was 3 years , almost 4 years younger then me and  went on to become a head chef. 

Home is family. Family is home.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Day 2

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 Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

Juicy as a word to me evokes memories of biting into a juicy piece of fruit and the juice just going everywhere.  It also makes me think of secrecy, because sometimes people refer to gossip and secrets as being Juicy.

The word to me would be that double edged sword, where one hand its simple & full of happiness, the other hand it is a negative and secrecy filled word.
It makes me think of how people often forget to be mindful (even I do sometimes).

The Positive side of this Word to me, is it is living in the moment.  There is no better time then now.

Day 1

 Today's one word prompt is:


What feelings does this word evoke? What sorts of memories does it recall? Which of your senses start to tingle? How would you represent what this word means to you?

When I think of Courage, i think of change and opportunities,  I think of facing  Barriers head on. I guess, you could say I see it as being brave in a moment were you may want to throw in the towel.  
 Memories it invokes are times where I  plucked courage to do something or face something.  For example, Alistair's Birth  I found courage  to face that  even though it scared the crap out of me. When I was 12, I found the courage to, choose where I wanted to live ( I chose an Aunt who was a single mum of 1), despite my mum not getting along with the person I chose, and it meant changing schools and moving house again etc.  I have moved states twice with children in tow.  That is a bit of a feat, that i do not want to attempt any time soon. 
Courage to me, is facing those obstacles head on and telling them "No I am stronger, I am better then this, I will get through this , I will Roar" (Yes, I am listening to Katy Perry's Roar, at the moment while Alistair dances)

Monday, April 14, 2014

Small moments

All these photos were taken over the weekend.

Ali & Charlie holding hands in their sleep.

Ali hugging a cabbage patch doll that used to be mine as a child.
With only a little over a week, until our moving of house, our house looks like a fort of boxes. There are boxes in almost every room now. Our house looks so empty  without  a lot of our stuff out.  I have been checking out  some of my fave blogs for ideas on how to whip my new house into an awesome state of organisation.  So far on my list i have:
PJ bags
Socks /jock /tie holder 
Laundry basket dresser
Laundry baskets 1 each for the boys with their name and photo on them
Toothbrush organisation 
 I think the  main thing i am looking forward to is having an office and the laundry has space for a dryer! Yay i can have a dryer!

Friday, April 11, 2014

School holiday Fun

It is school holidays currently for our boys, they go back to school to start Term 2 on the 23rd of April. Surprisingly, this school holidays so far there have been no fights, no bickering. (I can't tell you what magic holy grail potion i have found as i do not know what has waved it's magic on the boys)

Today We took the boy to visit the Geelong Playspace playground. It was Allan, Cody, Tyson & Charlie's first visit there and they all loved the playspace.

At the moment, We are busy preparing for Cody's upcoming 9th birthday and also moving house.Luckily, our new house is only a few streets away so moving with 4 kids in tow won't be overly stressful.

Yesterday the boys watched "Cloudy with a chance of meatballs 2" and "Planes" , they didn't really like Cloudy with a chance of meatballs, but loved Planes.

School Holidays has given me a chance to reflect upon some things.  It has also given us all a much needed chance to slow down and relax. Sometimes, the fast pace and busy schedules take its toll. I have set myself a few goals in various areas, I plan to make a vision board for them once we are in the new house.

I am looking forward to moving into our new house, it is bigger then our current home, which means the boys will have a play room, I can have a home office/study.

Today, I bumped into one of my first foster carers. I hadn't seen him for approx 16 years, He remembered me and I was so happy to catch up with him, and introduce the boys to him.  This carer, always told me when I was younger, " One day Jess, You will do great things in the world. The head on your shoulders is wise".  He and his wife were awesome foster carers, they took on my 4 siblings and I when they were already kinship carers to 3 children, so they had 8 kids aged 11 and under in their home.  I still keep in contact with the 3 children who lived there with us, they are now all grown up and working in different industries in different states.  Facebook helps us keep in contact.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

I didn't know you but..

Peaches with Her two sons Astala & Phaedra.
As I write , the world is in shock from the sudden death of Peaches Geldof. She was 25. A mum of 2 boys:
Peaches with one of her sons.
Astala and Phaedra.  Astala turns 2 this month and Phaedra turns 1 this month.  My oldest  Cody turns 9 the day after Phaedra celebrates his 1st birthday.

I chatted on Instagram a few times with Peaches, she thought I was a super hero of some sort because I had 4 boys. I simply told her, there is a light at the end of the sleep deprivation tunnel and I had come out of that tunnel semi sane.  Peaches was younger then me, (I am almost 28), when I was 25 I was a mum of 3 boys. Peaches was a kind , person. I never saw her be unkind to anyone online.

Some may have never heard of her.  I followed her on instagram. She was very vocal on attachment parenting.  She had overcome struggles, some in the public eye.  Many celebrities are fans of attachment parenting  (Tributes to peaches)
"Becoming a mother was like becoming me, finally," she said.
"After years of struggling to know myself, feeling lost at sea, rudderless and troubled, having babies through which to correct the multiple mistakes of my own traumatic childhood was beyond healing."I felt finally anchored in place, with lives that literally depend on me, and I am not about to let them down, not for anyone or anything. 
Since I've had the boys, I don't think of the world as a negative place any more. I just have so much love. And, through my love for them, I've been reborn into a better, more understanding, more patient person – I feel like an adult." - Peaches Geldof

Charlie in the ergo in 2010 age 2.


I didn't know you personally, in fact we never once met. I want you and your family to know I will miss your instagram posts. I hope Astala & Phaedra grow into  kind souls like their mum. I had my second when my first was 18 months old, it was hard work. It was exhausting.  i think the first year was a blur of nappies & feeds. I too feel that i was reborn into a better person once I had children.  I had mild PND after having my second son. I struggled and every now and then I still do struggle , parenting isn't an easy gig.

Those  few years of being stuck in a blur of nappies, and sleep deprivation and exhaustion, do end. Eventually, those little people  grow into  slightly bigger people. They still have their needs etc but  the exhaustion and sleep deprivation normally eases off.  By then , you somehow have become a pro at this gig , and other parents look at you like you just seem to have it all together, you are an expert.  But you learnt it all on the job, each day comes with new challenges and there is no one book or manual to tell you the holy grail of answers in how to raise kids.

parenting 4 boys isn't the easiest gig. 
Alistair and I, with him in the ergo. 
whilst I can not imagine the heart break Peaches's family and friends feel right now. I  hope they find comfort in the messages on her instagram from all those she chatted with and touched in some way.

Peaches taking on Kate Hopkins
Her last interview

In my eyes , what ended her life doesn't matter.  Two little boys have lost their mum. 

For more info check out:
Attachment Parenting Australia 
Attachment parenting: Is it the superior Option?
A mother's needs: the down side to attachment parenting=
celebrities who have been open about their parenting struggles such as PND
celebrities who do attachment parenting